I am still The Clueless Disciple

Not knowing what the next step is, is honestly, stressful. “When I first heard The Lord speak to me about going into the mission field, I wanted to know exactly what His long-term plans were.  My desire to understand what was in store for me soon blinded me from His desire for spontaneity.  It took […]

Whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.

I can’t do it.  All the responsibilities, being a good influence, always practicing patience, and living a life that always looks good from a ministry perspective.  It is hard.  My past still looms in my mind.  What I could have been follows me.  What would my life be like if I would have stayed on […]

A full schedule

Life is complicated, busy, and there are too many opportunities to even think about merely doing one!  I absolutely love what I am doing, and it helps that I have an amazing boss; Jesus! As mentioned below, I am pretty busy, but there are always things that I would still love to do, but there […]

We’re knot all in the same boat…

Well, this was the last week of the School of Navigation and Seamanship, which means lots of “see you later” and “goodbyes.”  In YWAM though, it is rarely a forever goodbye.  The relationships I have made here, I believe, will stay with me for the rest of my life.  I am so excited to see where the […]

Commitment isn’t my strong suit….

Asking me to make a commitment is about as easy as giving a cat a bath. I loathe commitments. I always feel locked in, stuck, and claustrophobic by their restraints. Knowing my hate for commitments, I have decided to make one. This one is a two-year, nerve-wracking contract. I have decided, only through God’s guiding […]

New place. New people. New mission.

Darkness. Complete darkness. Not a scary or unknown darkness, but tranquil and sleepy. Then a noticeable rocking both to and fro, slowly increasing in intensity. Light flooding the pupils as eyes open, and the darkness fades. The realization that the world isn’t moving, but the wake from a departing ferry is causing the ship to […]

Why I’m clueless, and why you should be too.

When I first heard The Lord speak to me about going into the mission field, I wanted to know exactly what His long-term plans were.  My desire to understand what was in store for me soon blinded me from His desire for spontaneity.  It took me many (thank goodness minor) mistakes for me to realize that His […]